Friday, May 21, 2010

No Surprises

I'm coming today to vent.

I love my mum and dad. Unconditionally and insanely.
I hate my grandmother (dad's side). Conditionally and sanely.
But that might change. Unconditionally and insanely being common.

She's a right bitch that one. Always been mean to my mother, always been mean to other daughter in laws. You get the gist. You've seen that TV serial.

And I know the drill. Life's not fair, blah blah blah. And another blah. She's elder and senile and all those excuses. I've heard them all before.

I still don't see the light.

I'm sure she won't pop it soon (or soon enough) or won't suddenly make an about turn and start being a loving one rather than an insecure grouch. Yes, I've been through all those thoughts and permutations in between before. If you label me a rank amateur in your head, you've got the wrong joe.

So what can I do. Other than a shoulder shrug and a sigh.

Mum's suffered a lot. Still does. And I feel so helpless so far away. So far away. So fucking far away.

That's all.


Heathcliffs Girl said...

you can call her names in your head. i call mine evil thing from space and toothy crone and it helps! momentarily

Anonymous said...

I cut some family members out from my life entirely. I have an Aunt who is just EVIL to my mother so I refuse to call her, answer her calls, or even chat with her. I never visit when she's in town. She is dead to me. And ignoring her completely somehow made her want to try and fix things but still I am totally and completely ignoring her and it makes me feel great.

Australis said...

:( :( This story is all too common with our parents' generation I think. All you can do is listen, support, and make sure no one ever treats your wife that way.


OrangeJammies said...

I'll add my sigh to yours. Are you in the Big Smoke? 'Coz I am. For a little while longer.

CrazyDiamond said...

@Heathcliffs Girl: I think I will. It's working already actually. For the moment that is :)

@Ravenwood: See, I could ignore the grannie and perhaps do to quite an extent. But my mum can't and that's what matters.

@Australis: Thanks. Remember the punch.

@OJ: my sigh smiles at your sigh and yells a big welcome.
Big Smoke? you mean this island of manhattan? sorry, it's too cryptic for my intelligence. If yes, then yes I am. Whereabouts?

OrangeJammies said...

Nein, London. :0) I thought you were in London.

CrazyDiamond said...

@OJ: Man, I wish I was in London. Want to swap?

shenanigans said...

I hear you. My dad's was mum was exactly the same. One of the singularly most unlovable human beings I've ever known. It's sad all around.